In the Club

I'm trying to erase your scent now
I'm trying to forget your touch now
Why did you have to be like that
I can't believe it, in the end you were that sort of guy

I'm trying to find my life now
I'm trying to meet my friends now
You obviously lied, and again, like a fool
I doubted that it was true

Can you please take away all the promises you made?
Even the petty habits, even the small memories
I'll burning them all away
I'm putting you, who lives in me, to sleep
The image of me you knew up till now won't exist anymore

In the club, tonight, for him
In the club, I'll give him my everything
In the club, just like the way you were with that girl
I'll love easily

In the club tonight, for him
In the club, I'll give him my everything
In the club, please embrace my painful scars too
So that only for tonight, I'd be able to forget you

See your figure dancing inside the dazzling light
You place your hand on the hip of first girl you see
In the loud club, I shout out louder for you
You seem like you don't even hear a thing

Tonight, I'll also forget you for a while
I'll erase all the pictures of you and me on my desk
It's tiring, I want to escape from you but
Why do I keep remembering you? I'm not okay

Can you please take away all the promises you made?
Even the petty habits, even the small memories
I'll burning them all away
I'm putting you, who lives in me, to sleep
The image of me you knew up till now won't exist anymore

In the club, tonight, for him
In the club, I'll give him my everything
In the club, just like the way you were with that girl
I'll love easily

In the club tonight, for him
In the club, I'll give him my everything
In the club, please embrace my painful scars too
So that only for tonight, I'd be able to forget you

When this night completely ends
Seems like I'll be left alone in my room
Seems like I'll be crying like a fool
I still see you in my dreams
Now I'll let you go
You shouldn't look for me again either

Random !!

  Jyeah man ! gonna write weird stuff ~ like yeah daaa.. It my freaking blog *middle finger* sucker !!
It been long time since I'm update things on myblog.. "ohhh yaaa" I'm kinda lazy to do soo.
More like chilling with mom,online,hang out (more like passed out/sleep),play Uno..

Sometimes,I'm not myself...Literally..kinda out of my mind ..hehe ^^
Like hell ,I don't care about other people say about me,cause I got my bestbuddy <3

Nowadays,I feel uncomfortable when people get to attached to me..
I like to be chase.. but I like a guy that I chase,not that chase me..
Can't you guys just be friend with me?stop thinkin' about making me ur GF!! FYI !

LOVE?What about it?? nahhhh it about loving others..No need string attached with me tho :P

And one things for sure,I hate when people get closed to my face.. What the Heck !?
What's the problem guys nowadays? Can't they just stop thinking about kissing others?
haishhh annoying tho !

Love thinggie ,nope I called it.. Stupid teenage hormones and (figure out yourself).. My love for Family ,God <3 and others friendly love *guys stop fantasizing more*..
Just love yourself is better.

Until I got more weirdo things,that it for today then :')

Unwanted

Indésirables ..
  C'est ce que je ressens maintenant .. inanimé après cet incident, notre premier combat ... qui nous font même pas parler aux uns et des autres est again.Why cela?
Même moi, je demande encore si vous garde, vous ne voulez même pas savoir.
Êtes-vous sérieux? Quand je vous ai supprimé de facebook, je pensais que vous ferez les moyens de me persuader. Mais aucun.
Pas même un seul texte ou call.Do vous me détestez?
Vous avez laissé quelque chose de spécial me.I gardé ..
J'ai pensé avec cette chose, je peux faire une excuse pour vous rencontrer ..
Mais négligents moi, c'est chose juste gone.missing ..
Je suppose que nous ne sommes pas destinés à être ..
Je demande à vos amis pour sortir avec moi, juste au cas oùvous vous présentez.
Mais je suppose que vous ne serez pas, parce que tu a obtenu«son» désormais ...
Et vous avez probablement heureuse avec son ..
Quant à moi, à vivre la vie pleine de Quilty et indésirables.

Please Don't Go

Last night in my dreams, you drew close to me,
Your whispered words, your hair that brushed against my face..


When I woke up from my dream, it was all too clear,
That your presence was nothing but a dream,
The tears in my eyes told me..


You can’t, you can’t, don’t leave like this,
Please just one more time, one more time, hold me in your arms again..


The next time I close my eyes to meet you,
Hold me as I stay still in that spot..


Even when I open my eyes, only your figure is clear,
That your presence was nothing but a dream,
The sadness reflected in my tears told me..


I try and even though I try,
I insist, I insist,
Come back to me..


You can’t, you can’t, don’t leave like this,
Please just one more time, one more time, hold me in your arms again..

The next time I close my eyes to meet you,
Hold me as I stay still in that spot..

I'm falling hard

"Me.. never thinking about loving other people beside my family..but someone..this guy..I care about him..I say to myself,I should only love him as a brother.Not much..

But as time past..I starting feel,jealous??maybe..when he with other girls..when he with with other girl..He said he got girlfriend.my heart just sink..it hurt so much..

When he break up with his girlfriend,I feel relief .but at the same time..I feel a bit disappointed ,cause he now different from I use to knew..He change..like not the same person I knew..Not caring,nice,polite and other good things..

"..dear your so pretty,beautiful,gorgeous.." Did you really meant it when you tell me?or just one of your unconscious things..
Or am I just one of your game??

I starting to study your new behavior..Just like a playboy,being touchy  much..and even pervert! you hold my hand,hug me,and even kiss my cheek.you never did it before,cause i hate it..
"expected the unexpected.." I guess that is it..

You even dare to talk about other girls infront of me..Talking about how much you like them,how cute they were..and even you wanna make them yours.

"I'm falling hard..like a glass fall to the ground,shattered to pieces.."
Never wanted to be hurt..or even hurting other people..but you,the reason im hurting so badly.

Now,we can only remain just a friends.not more..

Le's Daddy

Le' daddy,
I miss u,when will u get back home?wanna call u but i know u bussy.next month gonna "puasa",i hope u will be with us.i know u work hard for a better life.sometimes i don't care if we rich or not,all i care about we being a family.
I always worries about u,wonder if u eat or not.did u take care of ur health?
All of that lingering on  my mind,wish u were here all the time..So I don't feel worries about u,cause we here always with u..
and all i care now is you,daddy.Please get back soon ! I miss you daddy <3

Le' daddy,
I miss u,when will u get back home?wanna call u but i know u bussy.next month gonna "puasa",i hope u will be with us.i know u work hard for a better life.sometimes i don't care if we rich or not,all i care about we being a family.
I always worries about u,wonder if u eat or not.did u take care of ur health?
All of that lingering on  my mind,wish u were here all the time..So I don't feel worries about u,cause we here always with u..
and all i care now is you,daddy.Please get back soon ! I miss you daddy <3

Break up

It feels like you are right in front of me
It’s like I can touch you when I reach my hands out

The after effects of a farewell that I thought was going to be for a short while
But even drinking a glass of water is too much for me, I’m still in the break up stage
After you left, my heart is like an empty space
No matter how many times I call there is no answer
The method to forgetting her you ask? There is no answer

Each night without you, I’m filled with tears
Don’t even dare tell me to live better without you
There is only yearning, I think I’m in so much pain I might die
Each day I just wait for you

Nobody, you are the only person who will know my heart
Somebody help me , I am crying without you 
We keep crossing paths, I’m getting even more scared 
B-B-B-B-Break up now

I don’t wanna break up, don’t wanna break up, I don’ wanna break up
Do you know my painful heart?
I don’t wanna break up, don’t wanna break up, I don’ wanna break up
B-B-B-B-Break up

The words left over from the day is stabbed into my heart
My heart is hurting to the point I can’t breathe properly
It is hard for me to handle this situation
Instead of love, we were closer to farewell

Even for love it is Up&Down Right now we are Down But next time we will be Up, up-up-up
I’m the like the football that doesn’t know where I might go next, I’m so unpredictable
So come here girl, We still aren’t, we ain’t over
Forever like B&Hova , let go of that anger and Come closer

Nobody you are the only person who will know my heart
Somebody help me I am crying without you
We keep crossing paths, I’m getting even more scared
B-B-B-B-Break up now

I don’t wanna break up, don’t wanna break up, I don’ wanna break up
Do you know my painful heart?
I don’t wanna break up, don’t wanna break up, I don’ wanna break up
B-B-B-B-Break up

Please call me tonight Hold my hand Don’t wanna fight
Don’t want to break up, Don’t make me cry, girl don’t make me cry
Girl let’s make it right, Don’t leave me, It’s not that time
Don’t say bye-bye-bye, Please don’t say bye-bye-bye

Nobody, you are the only person who will know my heart
Somebody help me, I am crying without you 
We keep crossing paths, I’m getting even more scared 
B-B-B-B-Break up now

I don’t wanna break up, don’t wanna break up, I don’ wanna break up
Do you know my painful heart?
I don’t wanna break up, don’t wanna break up, I don’ wanna break up
B-B-B-B-Break up

Pets? but It's always die !

HELLO GUYS .
heyyy whoooRE ! whatzup,my randomness kinda effect people.
sorry guys, love ya <3

I thinking of having a baby ~ hurmmm not human one ! but Guinea Pig!
I want one,but mummy won't let me.cause every single pets she buy for me is.....
DEAD! owwww how sad,cant keep anythings alive.

My sister said that she wanna buy IT,but i guess i cant touch IT~
Cause IT her pet.maybe i should Bugging my daddy to buy IT.hehe :D
if daddy still say NO. i'll just T_______T ....
Cry me a river ~ ohhh ~ cry me a river ~

TRASH TALK !! IT SOO YOU !

Been ages i didn't update my blog,my blog like dead fish hanging now.
what should i post about??hurm maybe about ?or the stupid story i kept.

RANDOM !!
Cute guys but Dirty n Trash talk.why is that ?? just don't get it?! guys nowdays like to talk rubbish with pretty gurls. GUYSssss are you that desperate  an Attention ,haisshhh just quit all that nonsense.
Do you really thinks girls okay with that?? HELL NO ! they don't ,they maybe can fake smile or fake laugh .HA HA HA! it doesn't work boys!like seriously!

I HAD ENOUGH!! pleaseeeeeee guys ,don't compliment me if u only trying to talk trash then.
It doesn't make u a man,but more no mad n stupid.plus pervert ! and Damn i don't need u sweet ,lovey ,doley talking or more to rubbish kinda thinggie ! 

Don't you forget about me

They say love is just a game
They say time can heal the pain
Sometimes you win, sometimes you lose
And I guess it's just a fool
I keep holding on to you

I told you once you were the one
You know that I'd die for you
Although it hurts to see you go
Oh this time you should know
I won't try to stop you

Don't you forget about me baby?

Don't you forget about me now?
Some day you'll turn around and ask me, why did I let you go?

So you try to fake a smile
You don't wanna break my heart
I can see that you're afraid
But baby it's too late
'cause I'm already dying

Don't you forget about me baby?
Don't you forget about me now?
Some day you'll turn around and ask me, why did I let you go?

Whereever I go I don't forget about you
Whereever you go don't you forget about me. 

Say you Love me by MYMP w/ lyrics

Dear guys, if you like a girl tell her. Chances are she likes you too.
and say you love me!
It not that hard..

Ohh My BOYS!

BOYSSSSSSSS!
or Should i write Men ,lover or whatsoever you like.

Got my cute little doll..I prefer CHUCKY! doll of life.
i like  play game ,of puzzle piece of life.making them confused whether it right or not.
acting serious,blur or maybe fool ,to trick them..see the reaction  making me happy and laugh.
Feel like butterfly fluttering in my stomach ~

RBG

 "From now on, please don't say things that you don't mean. Don't say things that you won't do. Even if I disappear, don't come to look for me. Even if I die, don't shed a tear for me. It would make me a lot happier."


 "It really would make me happier to not know that people care about me because in reality...they don't."

Shinee Acting Drunk and Singing to Kesha [100814 Muzit cut]

The same things i will do if imma boring~

Hello april/angel

Starting new life..
im start work out,doing some pumping exercise..
It kinda hurt a bit,but it okay...just gonna bear with it..
they say maybe if you thin it make better,i guess..
hurmmm =.= ..it not easy as it thinks.

Back at the time N now

back at the time,always get excited to meet u..
when u call,always seen to have alot of things to talk about.
when u come late to meet me,i will pout like a kids.
when u didn't text me back,i will call u.

But now..when u ask me out,i always get excuse not to go..
when u call,i didn't really talk much..
when u come late now,i dont really care.
i didn't even text u anymore,but u keep calling me..
it just not right,u got your girlfriend..

Bloody hell!!

Erghhhh! tomorrow is your fucking birthday ! and why did i even remember it??!! what a shit..fucking shit!! damn your so annoying ,every time i saw u...u always make me mad,talking aloud about me..SO bullshit..
For serious,i feel like wanna straggle u that time.!!
YOU ARE THE MISERABLE,TROUBLE, OF MY LIFE SHAHRUL FITRI!!

Cant u see??!!You don't get it?!

  "oh sorry,i cant go out with u.i gotta meet my girlfriend" .he say.

Those words came flying toward me like icicles, stabbing me in the chest. It burned through my wounded skin and pricked at my heart. A sharp pain suddenly struck me, and right now it's going through my veins and quickly rushing up into my brain. Oh god. So he really doesn't like me. My shoulders slumped down a bit and tears began to build within my eyes. You know when you cry, and you get that sad tingly feeling in you? Yeah. That's how I feel right now. I bit my tongue to get a hold of myself.


"You seem very lonely. You need to go find someone to love you. I don't want you to be lonely for the rest of the time"He said 


You don't get it ___. It's you that I need.


I smirked. "I'll be fine. Don't worry about me."

I hate...

I hate this.

I hate everything about this.

I hate it how we are friends.

I hate how I'm not his girlfriend.

I hate it how he's not my boyfriend.
I hate it how when he hardly to meet,but he would only stay for forty minutes.

I hate it when he suddenly calls because it sends me the wrong message.

I hate it how when we're alone, he'll hold my hand.

I hate it how he'll just rest his head on my shoulder.

I hate everything because this is all driving me stupidly insane.

But at the same time, I love his moonlight sonata presence because he drowns me into the world of wonders.

I hate myself specifically.

give you my all

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N7sEVdlBG3E

Y.O.U

I remember our first date together,u said to me that u always watching me from a far..
every time when u next to me,u always feel happy..try to say *hye* to me,but u didnt have the courage to do so..always i ask my friends about me..but my friends say,*ask her, by yourself*..
after that date,u say u never leave me..even anythings happen u alway be for me..

But that just a memory to me,U hardly text ,call me..even if text or call u..u didnt text back or answer my call..
What a pathetic..

When it rain,i always think the time when we walking in the rain together.
..Here comes the rain again,falling on my head like a memory..

Need to forget You!!

Everything i do i'll thinks about,all about u..sometime i was wondering why do have to know  u..need to forget u...
I never cry for a guy,but u the first guy i cry for,and u make me cry so badly...
it been so long u didnt call me..when u call me That day at late night,i were sick,fever..the most hurtful things is when,*u say that u got new girlfriends*.Why do u hate to tell me that!!.My heart sink ,feel like it broken into million pieces..

And since that day,i try u ignore u,avoiding u..u act like nothing wrong. u keep coming around,please stop it..
You make my hurt sink,every time i see u. I dont like the things u do,I don't like the way you treat me.

Cant you see?  I hate you,I don't want you around.I would love to knock you,On the ground..You are mean to me.Cant you see?You are not my friend,I want your unkind..Treatment of me to end!

Wanna make things Clear!!

We just friend,nothing much okey!
except u wanna things go to Weirdness!!
then u Dare to!errrr~
if anythings just ask..dont make wrong conclusion!

Why me!

errrghhhh!! gossip ! gossip !
I'm just a friends ,like a sister nothings much..
but people always things other way..
yeahh maybe i  close to him,but doesnt mean we are couple!
feel like no more privacy ,errrr!
okey okey..cool sofiena,cool sofiena..
plus it not bad things to say i love u to people..haishh !

The moment when someone tells you those hurtful words, will be the moment when you feel like dying. Your heart just stops and it sinks deeper and deeper by each second as those words go in and out of your head. And when you finally push those words away, half of your body is already wounded while the other half has died.

- Say You Love Me

Don't you know that I want to be more that just your friend
Holding hands is fine
But I've got better things on my mind
You know it could happen
If you'd only see me in a different light
Baby when we fin'lly get together
You will see that I was right

Say you love me
You know that it could be nice
If you'd only say you love me
Don't treat me like I was ice

Please love me
I'll be yours and you'll be mine
and If you'd only say you love me baby
Things would really work out fine

I’ll back off so you can live

I’ll back off so you can live
Say it directly, looking at me
Say it looking into my eyes
Did you just say you wanted to break up?
Did you want to end it with me?

(I Know) You probably got a lady
(I Know) You probably got sick of me
Even though the tears are rushing to me

I’ll back off so you can live
That is all I can say
I’ll forget you so you can live better
So that you’ll be happy without me
The love that you tossed away, you can take it
Don’t even leave a trace behind and take it all
Don’t even say you’re sorry
Don’t worry about me

Your lips that told me tha you were going to leave
Why does it give me a reason to be angry today?
I need to stop you, the words don’t go out
And you are already moving far apart

(I know) You will forget me
(I know) I will really hate you
Even though you know everything

You! The reason I lived
You! Were all I wanted
You! It was me who only looked at you

Why? Why are you leaving?
Why? Why are you tossing me away?
If you were going to be like this
Why did you love me in the first place?

Do you happen to remember that day?
That day when we first met
I still remember it
The promise you made to me
That you will only care for me
That you will only protect me
That you will only love me
I believed your lies, I believed it

Did you really love me?
I’ll forget you so you can live better
Goodbye

Today somethings happen,i thought i gonna save it until i meet guy that i really love..
but he taken it..
-My first kiss....